Fighting Self-Doubt

There comes a time in the lives of those destined for greatness when we must stand before the mirror of meaning and ask: ๐–๐ก๐ฒ, ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐›๐ž๐ž๐ง ๐ž๐ง๐๐จ๐ฐ๐ž๐ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐œ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ๐š๐ ๐ž๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐ก๐ž๐š๐ซ๐ญ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐š ๐ฅ๐ข๐จ๐ง, ๐๐จ ๐ฐ๐ž ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฏ๐ž ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ข๐œ๐ž?

Fighting Self-Doubt
Created by Olubunmi Nmerenu

๐ˆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐œ๐ค๐ž๐ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐Ÿ๐ข๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐Ÿ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ-๐๐จ๐ฎ๐›๐ญ ๐ข๐ง ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ’, ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐›๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ž ๐›๐ฅ๐ฎ๐ž-๐›๐ฅ๐š๐œ๐ค. ๐‡๐ž๐ซ๐ž ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ: ๐Ÿ‘‡

I graduated from the prestigious Covenant University in 2013, with a first class in Banking and Finance. For four years, we were addressed as Kings and Queens, and when we graduated, we were christened Eagles.

My mind was conditioned to believe that I was a world changer and that I was one of Africa's finest leaders who would be at the forefront of Africaโ€™s transformation.

I left Uni with this mindset and did my one-year National Service in Bauchi (northern part of Nigeria). Everyone thought I was crazy to stay. The Boko-Haram insurgency was already on the rise in that region, Yet I stayed! Talk about bravery! ๐Ÿ˜€

After the youth service, I was so confident that the finest jobs in Nigeria were waiting for me. So, I started applying, and as expected, the invitations to attend the first screening (SHL assessment ๐Ÿ˜’) started rolling in.

But alas, I never made it past that stage. Every morning, I was greeted by emails in my inbox that began with the dreaded phrase, "๐–๐ž ๐ซ๐ž๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ข๐ง๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ๐ฆ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ...". With each rejection, another layer of my confidence was stripped away, leaving me increasingly discouraged.

I found myself grappling with this question: How could a first-class graduate fail to pass a simple assessment? Maybe I wasn't that smart? Self-doubt set in and mounted a throne in my mind.

I finally got a job, as a contract staff. It wasnโ€™t what I expected at the time, but I took it anyway because I just needed a โ€˜breakthroughโ€™.

I have since moved on to do big things and work for big companies, but I failed to deal with the imprint that challenging phase left on my mind.

While deep within my soul I knew I was a world changer, and one of Africaโ€™s finest emerging leaders, I was being oppressed by self-doubt.

It was in asking myself the question: โ€œ๐™’๐™๐™ฎ, ๐™๐™–๐™ซ๐™ž๐™ฃ๐™œ ๐™—๐™š๐™š๐™ฃ ๐™š๐™ฃ๐™™๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฌ๐™ž๐™ฉ๐™ ๐™ฉ๐™๐™š ๐™˜๐™ค๐™ช๐™ง๐™–๐™œ๐™š๐™ค๐™ช๐™จ ๐™๐™š๐™–๐™ง๐™ฉ ๐™ค๐™› ๐™– ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ค๐™ฃ, ๐™™๐™ค ๐™„ ๐™ก๐™ž๐™ซ๐™š ๐™–๐™จ ๐™ข๐™ž๐™˜๐™š?โ€ that I was able to excavate this soul wound and find my way to healing.

As we go through life, our souls may have been scarred by some unfortunate events that cause us to subconsciously shrink our potential.

As we begin a new week, I want you to do some soul excavation! Ask yourself the right questions and donโ€™t stop until you get an answer. I want you to ๐ซ๐ž๐œ๐ฅ๐š๐ข๐ฆ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ-๐๐จ๐ฎ๐›๐ญ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐จ๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐ข๐ง๐š๐ฅ ๐๐ž๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฒ ๐๐ž๐ฌ๐ข๐ ๐ง.

Self-doubt won round one, but I have won and will keep winning every other round! ๐ˆ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐š๐ฌ๐œ๐ž๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐‡๐ˆ๐†๐‡๐„๐’๐“ ๐ฉ๐จ๐ญ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐š๐ฅ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ง๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ข๐ซ๐ž ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ๐ง๐ž๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ง ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ฌ.

I hope you make the same commitment to yourself this week! Have a fabulous week!

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